Until now . i am still having that restless mind ...and uneasy feel within me (really suck to the core !) Life is full of surprises ...i'm not expecting any reply from "R" anymore ...but he reply !!
I'm expecting C(ro-g) to call me ...but she didn't !!What a irony in life , don't you agree ...i also cannot beleive this type of thing can happen wor
in fact received 3 sms from "R" -- > REALLY SURPRISE !!
"Yes Eric ? Just send me sms ok. What's up ? "
"I will let you know , if i can get leave on that day ok. How have you been doing so far ? Makan already ?"
"Relax. Calm down Eric ! What's bothering you anyway. Work ? "
At least got communicate , not bad ...maybe this friendship got hope de..wait 2 weeks time see how
I send 5 sms and make 5 seperate calls to C(ro-g) -> NO CALL /NO SMS
--> REALLY SURPRISE !!
.... Don't know what to say about this ...anyway , my patient deadline is until Monday 12 mid -night. At least give her time to coll down and consider about our friendship...if by then really BREAK ...alos no more regret lah
This is my sms send in the evening :
"C(ro-g) ,sorry for all today's miss calls from me (confirm no more call again) tomorrow also will send last sms to u after deliver book 2 to your house. If by next monday 12 mid night i still do not receive any "thank you" call/sms -confirm 100% break relationship. If you want pay back $xx. u can contact me by monday. I do not want to keep this friendship anymore if you do not value it. No meaning to continue if u take me for granted. BREAK OR FRIEND ?U decide ! I will not feel guilty or regret anything. U owe me a agreement yet to settle ~ can u live in peace ? Its your call now . "
Until now i update this blog..i still DO NOT get any response ...i believe the answer is very clear now ..lol ...nevermind lah, wait ntil Monday mid night see how loh
Tuesday morning then make official announcement loh (if applicable)
If anyone simply just make use of you for their needs/wants only ...i don't think this type of friends is worth to keep... Morever , what do you think of anyone who can "BETRAY" you to wait 2 hours just for nothing...If its friends will not treat you this way de... TRUE Friends do not hurt you , instead they help you ! I believe you agree this too !!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
My mood is still lousy..
Last nite while watching internet movie , semone from RO-G (Jrxx) msn me , i just reply him "busy" ..then ignore his msn and continue to watch the movie.
So after that , i put benson to sleep then come back to the computer and check Jrxx 's msn and i read one of the satement he make and make it BOLD in RED -- YOU ARE DEAD ..wtf !!
Is this a joke or ???
I do not have any nice mood to entertain such prank joke or what-so-ever at the moment...then i reply his msn asking him to explain. He apologise saying that his friend come to his house and he was showing him that msn can actually change font and colour...so he use this statement to show to him...i don't think "You are DEAD" is something nice to use as a demo example especially sending to someone who's having deep shity mood whole day due to unhappiness happening.
Since he explain and apologise , i rest this case
The bad & uneasy feeling keep haunting me ...and its driving me crazy...maybe i should make a trip to temple for some prayers in order to calm my corrupted mind + give me inner peace ? Maybe it will just help...
I only hope currently i got good friends with me so that i can share out all my feelings ...to say out will help lower sme burden...but the problem is ...where are my friends ? Who is willing to lisetn to me now ...??
So after that , i put benson to sleep then come back to the computer and check Jrxx 's msn and i read one of the satement he make and make it BOLD in RED -- YOU ARE DEAD ..wtf !!
Is this a joke or ???
I do not have any nice mood to entertain such prank joke or what-so-ever at the moment...then i reply his msn asking him to explain. He apologise saying that his friend come to his house and he was showing him that msn can actually change font and colour...so he use this statement to show to him...i don't think "You are DEAD" is something nice to use as a demo example especially sending to someone who's having deep shity mood whole day due to unhappiness happening.
Since he explain and apologise , i rest this case
The bad & uneasy feeling keep haunting me ...and its driving me crazy...maybe i should make a trip to temple for some prayers in order to calm my corrupted mind + give me inner peace ? Maybe it will just help...
I only hope currently i got good friends with me so that i can share out all my feelings ...to say out will help lower sme burden...but the problem is ...where are my friends ? Who is willing to lisetn to me now ...??
Some little thoughts...
First thing First , i've a bad feeling that RO-G forum may not survive..somehow i've lost interest to it..From what i talk to Hatori , some Mods and members...it doesn't sound to good of a bright future propects for this forum. The dateline for another year renewal due somewhere in Nov month , and that means another SGD$3xx (cannot remember exact cost)
It's a bad feeling from within myself that's all regards RO-G. what make me feel un-secure is my RO Museum archive - these are my effort , my blood and soul during my active RO times ~ those memories. I doesn't feel good about this. IF RO-G can continue for few years...RO museum can still be there (forget about the previous old RO-G set up by ken)..but if RO-G closed for whatever reason.. the msueum is gone 1 i did not archive it to my PC !
When i've great interest and support active during RO-G set up , i may consider to pay the cost for another year to come ...but not now ...don't know why suddenly my moods change so much nowsaday. ITs certainly very un-healthy
Currently some idea come into my mind...maybe i will set up another blog just to host this RO 's once popular Musem in the early days..another blog hosting is free and i can just use it as a archive there...should be a great idea. I will start working on this migration project as soon as i can fork out some free time in the days to come (stay tuned !)
2nd thought suddenly flash into my mind...about the real meaning of friendship . What vlaue does it have ? Why people cannot keep their words , their promises and betray the basic trust ??
Currently , i have friends who "SABO" and hurt me in different ways that make me feel very emo and menatlly sad + tired..i'm really sick of living such a NOOB lifestyle !
I'm currenly montoring 2 of my friends to see if i were to maintain or totally cut of the friendship network. (yeah, one of them is "R" - depend if he can return $600 two weeks later..and the other is xxx ..to be shared later). I also do not have good feeling towards this 2 friendship , simply have the gut feeling that they take me for granted ~ make use of me to meet their wants/needs and do not really care for the value of our friendship. No wonder is always me calling them !! If heu care or bother ...why not they take initiative to call me too ? Closed Friendship should be a 2-way commnications instead of is me always calling to "DISTURB" ??
Well. i don't want to give up any friendship so easily. Would like to give them a last chance to proof their value towards me..if by my setr dateline ,things are not improving ~ i will make a FINAL decision to STOP all contact once and for all (no point dragging on..no meaning). I will not regret by then cuz i've try my best to keep the friendship going ...but the other party just doesn't appreciate anything ...so there is no meanng to cheat one self ..it takes 2 hands to clap.. Just my lonely efort will not help if the other party is no longer willing to accept me as friends anymore..then just be it - CUT CONTACT, FORGIVE & FORGET ...life goes on.
It is really frustrating whenever i thought of such issues...really hate these type of un-easy feeling ! Hope to quickly settle them and get over it soon !!
It's a bad feeling from within myself that's all regards RO-G. what make me feel un-secure is my RO Museum archive - these are my effort , my blood and soul during my active RO times ~ those memories. I doesn't feel good about this. IF RO-G can continue for few years...RO museum can still be there (forget about the previous old RO-G set up by ken)..but if RO-G closed for whatever reason.. the msueum is gone 1 i did not archive it to my PC !
When i've great interest and support active during RO-G set up , i may consider to pay the cost for another year to come ...but not now ...don't know why suddenly my moods change so much nowsaday. ITs certainly very un-healthy
Currently some idea come into my mind...maybe i will set up another blog just to host this RO 's once popular Musem in the early days..another blog hosting is free and i can just use it as a archive there...should be a great idea. I will start working on this migration project as soon as i can fork out some free time in the days to come (stay tuned !)
2nd thought suddenly flash into my mind...about the real meaning of friendship . What vlaue does it have ? Why people cannot keep their words , their promises and betray the basic trust ??
Currently , i have friends who "SABO" and hurt me in different ways that make me feel very emo and menatlly sad + tired..i'm really sick of living such a NOOB lifestyle !
I'm currenly montoring 2 of my friends to see if i were to maintain or totally cut of the friendship network. (yeah, one of them is "R" - depend if he can return $600 two weeks later..and the other is xxx ..to be shared later). I also do not have good feeling towards this 2 friendship , simply have the gut feeling that they take me for granted ~ make use of me to meet their wants/needs and do not really care for the value of our friendship. No wonder is always me calling them !! If heu care or bother ...why not they take initiative to call me too ? Closed Friendship should be a 2-way commnications instead of is me always calling to "DISTURB" ??
Well. i don't want to give up any friendship so easily. Would like to give them a last chance to proof their value towards me..if by my setr dateline ,things are not improving ~ i will make a FINAL decision to STOP all contact once and for all (no point dragging on..no meaning). I will not regret by then cuz i've try my best to keep the friendship going ...but the other party just doesn't appreciate anything ...so there is no meanng to cheat one self ..it takes 2 hands to clap.. Just my lonely efort will not help if the other party is no longer willing to accept me as friends anymore..then just be it - CUT CONTACT, FORGIVE & FORGET ...life goes on.
It is really frustrating whenever i thought of such issues...really hate these type of un-easy feeling ! Hope to quickly settle them and get over it soon !!
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